Happy New Year's Eve!!!

Two-thousand-eight is about to begin and I am definitely ready. My two resolutions are the same as always and I am pretty sure that I can fulfill them. They are: to enjoy my family and to stay alive to see another year through. The thing you must remember that I make the second because of my past (and present for that matter). Yes, my meds are in check but I do have bouts when my depression does creep up and haunt me thankfully not as bad as it once was (nine years ago).

I do have to say that I am still not in total agreement with the doctor because I feel deep down in my heart that I should have the diagnosis of bi-polar/manic-depressive disorder. I have my highs which I feel have always felt that my anti-seizure med (now Oxcarbazepine) has managed rather well. The depressive lows are now managed by Prozac (Fluoxetine). The two meds are working rather well and I feel, for once, that I can actually get things done around the house and beyond.

Ready for January 2nd

I need to get back to our regular schedule. My middle daughter and I are butting heads in every direction possible. I just think we need a break from each other and school allows just that and I am definitely needing that time away from her. The sad irony is this is exactly what my own mom and I went through when I was little. My mom always prayed that I would get one just like me and yes the prayer came true and I got what she always said I deserved.

Yes, I am doing the same thing: Praying that she gets a girl just like herself when she gets old enough to want a family of her very own. I know how sad that is but in order to truly understand the hell I am going through now to raise her. I constantly call my mom just to tell her that "I am sorry," etc. I do appreciate everything my mom did to raise me, now.

Being Ready for the Holidays

Haha !! That is a joke in and of itself especially when you want to have your husband's help. I know I am bad but he is even worse. I will not be surprised if on the 24th we are at Wal-Mart getting whatever is left on the shelf for the three of the kids.

I am hoping that after today James will at least get some done this week. Heck, we only have eight days until Christmas and the kids are off Friday for the holidays. I am just worried the things weI am wanting to get for the kids will not be available if we wait to long.

Anyway, that is my delimma not yours, hehe!

Nice and Sunny

Sort of a calm before the storm to take a much abused cliché for the wintertime. The good news is this next storm is not supposed to be as harsh and who knows we may get nothing or very little like last time. In actuality we may get nothing to two inches.

The Christmas program is tomorrow night and I am hoping the school does not cancel it because there maybe some snow. I personally just want to get the program out of the way so that we can get on with the next thing on my list of things that to me make the holidays less enjoyable. These are the times that I wish I could just go to California for the holidays just to be with my family.

Sigh, I know I am like Ebeneezer Scrooge but if that is the case I married the right person because James is the same way. I think we have forgotten the real meaning of Christmas.

My New Lap Cat

Ok, so she is no cat but Sara and I sit together while I type here at my computer almost every morning. Personally, this is the way I would have had it in the beginning and we would have no cats but it is the rest of the family who love the cats. I love my cats too but I am more into my dogs.

Ok, so I have to take them outside to pee and poop and that means for Sara I have to rake the front lawn almost daily -- I thankfully do not have to smell the litter box odor when she does do her business. I wish I could have taught all my house cats to go outside like dogs but no such luck around here.

Here in Goodwell, OK

We were very lucky here as we did not get the ice that the rest of Oklahoma got due to the storm that is blanketing the midwest and most of Oklahoma. My feeling is that we already had that hell in December and January of last winter we don't need it again.

The good thing is we are getting a very light mist/smatter of snow that may or may not get heavier as the day goes on. The kids we able to sleep in today as school started today after nine, which only makes it harder on parents especially since the roads never froze over last night. My son was happy about the fact that he did not have to rush around but my daughter had a hard time understanding that school just started later today.

Anyway, back to my normal day until I hear otherwise.

Sandy's Ringworm



Here is a picture of what ringworm looks like. Sandy was attacked on her head and back and hopefully she won't get scabs anywhere else.

Sara and Sammy

Yes, I know ones a dog the other a cat but they are constantly playing with each other. Yes, the dog, Sara, thinks she is a cat because she is mostly around them and not the other two dogs. Sara also tries to play with Stella and Mo but they are not as good about playing fairly so she hardly tries to play with them.

Sara does get a few minutes with Henry and Snickers but because she is so much smaller and younger than the two I have a hard time letting them play for too long. I will go outside with Sara though for fifteen to thirty minutes but I am mostly playing referree because the big deogs like to pin Sara in corners. I also have to make sure Sara does not go through the fence as it is wire and she can fit through.

Sandy Candy

Sandy has ringworm thus we are having to isolate her from the other animals and kids. The vet told us we will probably need to have her sectioned off for two months which I have to say will become a nightmare with all the beings in the house. I may have to finally re-clean by garage out so that we can keep her in there but I am certainly not going to do that this weekend because we are getting freezing rain and possible snow up until Tuesday or Wednesday -- I am praying for no electric y outages like last December/January.

Sugar Sara is doing better although we are still working on housebreaking and such. I did finally get her on a somewhat routine schedule. The thing we are working on now is her telling me when it is time to go outside before a second before she needs to actually go to the bathroom. I am hoping with age she gets a lot better and can last all night before needing to go outside. I know that will happen because of my history with raising puppies into good well-behaving dogs. I prefer to get a puppy than a full-grown dog though because then I can crate train them easier which keeps messes at a minimum and I do not have to hear complaints from my husband in regards to a dog sleeping on the bed.

The Puppy

Sara is doing good although I have to say now I know why I was never a fan of small dogs: They are the worst about being able to hold their pee long enough to get outside. I am constantly cleaning out her crate as well as the rest of the house. I do love the dog to death though and like the fact that I can have the puppy sit on my lap while I am at the computer or just relaxing. I am constantly reminded of my mom's toy poodle Pepe and the fact that the energy he had meant that he ran around the living room in figure eights: Sara also does that on the times we are playing.

Sara does have one weird habit. She has learned from the cats to groom herself as they do. We have started calling her our cat-dog, like the Nickelodeon cartoon Catdog except not she does not have a head of a cat on one end and a dog's head at the other -- she is definitely all dog. We did have a neighbor ask if she was another cat, which I thought was funny.

The kids are doing a lot better with the dog than I anticipated that I am very happy about. My eldest actually takes the dog out for a walk in the morning and took her for a walk around the block last night. The youngest will go visit the dog when she is in her crate and will watch me play with Sara without crying or throwing a major fit. I cannot tell yet how my middle daughter is going to take the dog. I do know that they all are going to like Sara more than they do the others.

I really think James is getting more and more attached to the dog each and every day. What I usually think is so hilarious is men are mostly indifferent at first but are the most attached in the end. Of course it helps that he must take Sara for walks in the night because I go to bed around eleven.

Trileptal -- Oxycarbemazepine

The good news for those with seizure disorders, from which I have, and those with epilepsy Trileptal has finally released the generic brand of the med which is called oxycarbemazepine.

I am really happy about this as for me it means a savings of 50% off what I paid before. Any money that we can save is good in my opinion because my love for animals and kids seems to squeeze a lot of money out of us, hehe. No worries on the kid front we are not having any more barring a miracle or something close to that. Animals should not be entered into our house for a long while as well.

The puppy Sara is doing wonderful although we are still working on the potty training. I am training two little ones now though, my two-year-old and my puppy...What fun!!!

Yeah!

Last night was a good night with Sara as she did not have any accidents in her crate. The night before she pooped and peed in her crate causing both James and I to have to clean it out. Unfortunately James got the poop, on his part. He won't even do the changing of the litter boxes on Sunday night because of that fact. The only time he has ever done the full chore of the cat litter boxes was while I was pregnant with the two girls before then we did not have any cats or dogs.

Our son took Sara for her morning walk this morning from which I was very proud of him. He is actually taking some initiative to take care of a dog. The other two dogs just run over the kids and thus even he has a hard time taking care of them.

Yes We Are Animal Lovers

Sugar 'Sara'

Ok, I know we are the crazy cat family but the dog lover in me won this time. I got us a White Highland Terrier this evening with the kid's acting abilities getting to James enough to let me buy the sweet little girl. Her name is Sugar Sara.


Sugar 'Sara'


We went to Liberal to get our annual Christmas pictures which unfortunately I cannot share with anyone because they no longer let you buy the disk with the pics on them. I will say that I was not happy with them and I thought the photographer was anything but helpful. We ended up getting only one background and no props or anything. The picture James and I took together was so bad that I did not even buy that one. The one we took last year was so much better.

All I am going to say is next year we will be looking for a new place to get our pictures done.

The Mundane Days Return

Well, we are back to normal around here and sometimes that can mean the same old mundane routine of everyday life. I get up get breakfast ready for the girls, take a shower, then takethe two older to school. I come home let the dogs out make coffee if I had not made it after getting breakfast for girls. After that it is anybody's guess until noon when I get youngest lunch and then hopefully put her down for a nap around one from which I go read and or take a nap myself before I have to pick up my other daughter from school from which we clash until bedtime on most days.

For those who may have not read my blog carefully enough I did finish NaNoWriMo and am classified as a winner on Melia: National Novel Writing Month ...

Have a Great Day!

I'm a NaNoWriMo Winner

I reached the 50,000 word limit yesterday afternoon thus I am an official winner of NaNoWriMo Winner.

Now, I can get back to my every day life and not have to get everyone to leave me alone so I can finish my daily goals. The novel still has a lot of work but the story is written.

Next Saturday we will get our annual family holiday picture day. We will have to go up to Liberal again because our Wal-mart near us decided, stupidly, not to put a portrait studio in the new Super Wal-Mart. I guess we are just to be happy that they do at least have a grocery in the store.

The good news is we can go out to eat at AppleBee's because there is one in Liberal. I am hoping also to do a litle shopping as well but because the kids will be with us no Christmas shopping will get done until at least a week later.

Have a great day.

Happy Thanksgiving

Hey all, it is finally the holiday season and the Christmas consumerism has begun. You like me have probably gotten ten thousand emails regarding holiday sales starting today. Geesh! I hate the holiday buy, buy, buy-ism. My girls are better than my son as he always wants the most expensive gifts. This year he is bugging me about getting games for his Ninetendo DS and he also wants an IPOD.

Okay, so my shopping will have to wait until after the first. Thus today is focused on the turkey and the side dishes that go along with it. I have to say I did find a good article online that helps those who are new to cooking this American tradition it is: Southern Cooking: Traditional Oven Baked Turkey . Cyndi Allison wrote the article and it answers all the basic questions especial if you are like me and want to do the simplist turkey just to get through the day -- all the while I try not to figuratively kill my kids.

Long Monday

It is a long day that seems will never end. I just recently, within the last hour, just started my writing for the day. My son came home sick with a sore throat and a headache that got worse when he got to school thus he called me around nine am. I am pretty sure that it is because of the dang flu-shot because I have the same thing going on.

My youngest daughter added to my frustrations by being needy and sort of clingy as well. I am not sure if it also had to do with the flu shot.

Life was just not on my side. Hehe!

Still on Track

My NaNo Days are going well. I am on track at 34,000+ words of a total of at leas50,000+ I should get that and beyond on the 25th of this month. After today will have written 36,000 words. My only fear is Thanksgiving because I usual cook that day and thus the day seems mostly shot.

Now if only I can keep my son gone and my girls out of my hair I will get it done within three hours.

Sigh! Too much to ask for I know!

Almost Set for Flu Season

Well, as I said yesterday we would be getting our flu shots we got them. The girls still have to get a second dose of the shot because they are young they only get half the dose at a time. I did make the nrse semi-promise (sorta jokingly, but she understands my fear) because I am not about to go through what we went through last year. The fact that we are still trying to pay off the doctor bills is bad enough. I certainly don't need to add to the bill by being at the doctor's office every day in the month of February and a few days in March.

James said he would get his next week at work because he can as long as he can catch the nurse on campus. He says that that has been the main problem this semester because he is teaching six courses. He is better about these things than I am but I think last year changed everything.

Nothing Special

Today was quiet compared to what tomorrow will be. The kids and I are going to the doctor to get our flu shots and such. I am sure the kids will hate me all weekend but I got to do what I can to prevent my youngest from getting the flu this year. Last year was bad enough anf I refuse to go through that again. My son needs a physical for basketball as well, so we will get that too.

I got my words written today and am at 30,000+ words. I will try and get my writing done tomorrow before I go to the doctor's appointment.

Days 2,000 Words Done

Yup, that is right my writing is done for the day, I am currently at 28,067 words thus far . Todays scenes came a lot easier to write than yesterdays but that does happen and much of that is because I am in the middle of the story and sometimes it is hard to get over the hump and not get to the end before the time is right.

Sorry no pics today, just my writing. The irony is if I have finished my words for NaNoWrimo then you get more words to read. I actually have very little to say at this time because the only thing that is happening is my son is about a head smaller than me and my girls are playing nicely in their room together. The good thing about the youngest getting bigger is that she can better play with her older sister while her sister does not complain as much.

I am surprised that the youngest is playing so well this afternoon because she did not get a nap. My guess is the both of them will crash hard tonight and that means an early bedtime for them.

Sandy and Sammy Pics






Sandy Candy Eating From Feeder




Yes, she is in the dish. The fact that we no longer have a resident cat that pushes the food out with her paw means that James or myself have to push the food down for the cats. Sheila was our cleanliest cat and would always do things like bring down the food.






Sammy Loves to Go Up the Tree



He goes in our huge pine tree every morning when I let him out while I take the kids to school. I am not sure if he wants to play with the birds or try and kill them. Maybe he just likes the tree!




A Kitty Cat-Nap

Another Day, Another Day of Writing

I am happy that it is Monday, as that means that I have time to write while the two older kids are at school instead of writing after most or all three kids go to bed, which is how I do it on the weekend. I usually end up kicking daddy out of the house on those nights so that I can get my writing done, lucky for him it only last one month and then I am done for the year at least for that project.


My youngest just got in trouble for throwing away her lunch. She has come up with this idea that if she throws away food will get her what she wants so both James and I have to look in the trash before we give her cookies and or dessert. The lessons one must learn about life in general is difficult for a little one. The thing that always scares me is that she acts like her sister would if given the same situation.

Now, I need to get started writing my two thousand words for the day. Yesterday I wrote exactly two thousand words. I am now at 22,063 words and should accomplish 24,000+ words by the end of the day. I will get to half the NanoWriMo goal tomorrow afternoon sometime.

Our Sammy Cat

He is not to happy with the fact that we got yet another cat and he is not the youngest anymore. All I can say is he better get used to it because at the rate we get cats she is not the last one we will bring in during his hopefully long life. We seem to get one a year whether we need them or not and/or stay at around five cats. Right now we have Fluffball Stella, Mohawk, Spot, Sammy. and now Sandy and no for those wondering we did not plan to bring one in the same day we put one down -- it just happened that way.

We did have an idea that Sheila was getting sick as she started looking a lot like our cat, Shadow who died earlier this year. James wanted to take her in on Friday and the lady who found Sandy Candy and her littermate(s) wanted to bring it by on Friday so things just happened that way. Life just works out that way around here but I do think getting an replacement helps my family in the grieving process.

NaNoWriMo is still going well...I am at 20,067 words as of last night and will be at 22,067 or more tonight after I finish for the day.

For Those of You Keeping Track

My NaNoWriMo fun is continuing and I am right on track at a little over 18,000 words. I should be at 20,000 words by the end of the day. I write about 2,000 words a day and should be at the goal of 50,000 by November 25th if I keep at this rate. I am not hoping that I am able to keep up the speed and if I do then I will be great for getting to the end.

As for the kitten she is doing good. She still has yet to really use the litter box but I am not too suprised because it is a lot bigger than she is and it is thus difficult to get in because it is one of those big enclosed ones.


The next addition of our shoulder kittens. Sammy was getting too big for shoulder sitting so James needed a new parrot-cat. The cute thing is both of them have green eyes.

Rest in Peace -- My Screamer Sheila


Acreamer Sheila was born June 12, 2001 and was put to rest November 9, 2007.
James took her into the vet today because she has been increasingly going down hill for a week or more and I have to say she smelled like death the other night when I grabbed her off our bed because she was going after my one and only plant in our house. I knew that something was wrong when I found her in a box ful,l of my middle daughter's papers from pre-k, this morning and early afternoon before she went to the vet around three pm.
Anyway, it seems to be cat day around our house...we are the revolving doors of cats.

Our Newest Addition


At this time She is named Sandy Candy by James, myself, and my youngest daughter.

MoZo Cat!


Hope this image comes out ok. It is our Mohawk cat who decided to look directly into the flash as I took the picture. My son told me not to change it at all so I only cropped it.

Aqua Dots Recall -- Date Rape Drug Found

Hmmm! Is there anything from China that is safe for our kids and us alike? Maybe, we should boycott things from China and thus start producing things in our own country again. If we did produce things here they maybe more expensive but we certainly would know that the government regulations would keep our kids safe from lead and other poisoning.

It is too bad that we are not going to California for Christmas because that would be safer than buying toys for our kids.

Sigh!

NaNoWriMo Continues

My writing is going really well and I am happy to say I am right on track at 12,000+ words written thus far and by the end of the day I should be at 14,000= words written. I do have to write my two thousand words before the CMA Awards this evening because I know that my family is not going to want to watch it but I do and thus I will be kicked to the bedroom, which is fine with me -- I like the alone time I get away from everything especially the four of the five cats.

Oh and did I mention my hubby wants to bring home a sixth cat from a student who has found some kittens she is nursing back to health after she found them on and around Halloween. If we get another cat I am wondering how my five cats are going to take it.

I would rather get another dog myself at least they do their business outside after they are potty trained. With cats you hope and pray they go in the litter box but usually they go wherever they want. Cats are cute but are a pain in the ASS.

Craxzy, Crazy, Crazy!

That is exactly how my weekend felt. My girls were on top of each other most of the weekend driving me crazy enough to cause me to write late at night instead of during the day thus I kicked Daddy out of the house so that I could get my two thousand words per day written. I am luck I guess because I now have it down to doing it in two hours time or one thousand words per hour or there abouts.

Today should be different as the older two are at school and the youngest is usually easy going. The good, or bad,news depending how you look at things is that she did wake up in the middle of the night and was up for about two hours so maybe she will get an earlier longer nap. All I need is a few hours of quiet time between now and picking up my middle child. This afternoon we have gymnastics so I will lose about two hours between 3:00 and 5:15 pm.

So, I guess I should get off this soapbox and go to my other two blogs to update them. Please check out the links on the right column.

Second Day of NaNoWriMo

Yers, you are going to hear about it probably everyday because during November it is not only my life but my family's life as well. I live and breathe to get my characters so they can tell their own tale on paper for all to read someday. I told my husband last night that I go to bed thinking of my characters and many a times dream of where they are and what they are doing. I sometimes even get a chance to see the road that lays ahead of them. I try my hardest though to keep myself from traveling to far ahead with them because I can only write so fast and thus if they get too far ahead of me I lose part of their story.


Ok, so there you go that is how I go about telling a tale of my characters to you my reader.

Made it Through the Ghoulish Evening

My kids got too much candy and we have a ton left over so I now have to figure out how to get rid of it all. I will probably make hubby take it to work and give it to his students (university) so the candy can rot their teeth and not my kids.

I took the girls around the neighborhood first and then their dad took them around the dorms afterwards. All I have to say is my little ladybug and witchy witch had full buckets by the time they got back from the dorms. The thing is I will never let my kids eat all the candy they got and even if I keep it to get rid of at Easter for the plastic eggs I must supply the school with for an Easter Egg Hunt I will still have bucket upon bucket leftover.

My son ended up going around with a neighbor and his brother just because it meant he did not have to go around with his sisters. His best friends ended up not going around so he was a little upset about that but then he found the neighbor who would.

Happy Halloween

Have a ghoulish day and stay safe not sorry. I would rather hide out in the back room as I hate opening my door to all kids in the town. Because we live on campus we seem to get all the town kids trick or treating and with my five cats I get scared that they will run out thus the possibility of getting hurt, scared, or simply running away takes over on a night where there are tons of parents, children, and their cars going up and down the street.

We will take our own kids out -- at least the girls as our boy is going to go around with his friends.

Picture Day!

I always fear these days because there is no way to know if your kids will actually behave and smile in a nice way. Of course, there is always the fear that the teachers or the photographers won't find the stray hair or the stray food particle or any of a number of other things that can land on or around the face and shirt.

I am at the school and photographers mercy....

Good Morning All!

How come it is all week I am going is it Friday yet and then on Monday I am saying "Thank God it is Monday!" I can tell you exactly why, actually, it is because I hate getting up early on the weekdays and then when it hits the weekend by Sunday night I am ready for a break from the middle child who is a handful. I love her dearly but dang she has the same personality and temper as I do thus making it very difficult as I was a handful myself as a kid and now I have her to remind me how tough I was to my own mom.

So thankfully, it is Monday morning! I take that same daughter to gymnastics this afternoon which means she will be really tired tonight.

Sunday

Thus tomorrow is Monday meaning that I will get a quieter day than my hectic weekends. I have to say I have to applaud those that have the patience to home school their kids as I could never do that -- I like my peace and quiet and am looking forward to the day I send my youngest daughter off to school either in Pre-K or Kindergarten. Of course my youngest is only two-and-a-half thus I still have about two years before Pre-K if we still live in the Oklahoma Panhandle. If we are to move to California then I may have to put my youngest in daycare so that I can get a job outside the home if I don't get my book edited and circulating by then.

I probably should be spending all my energy on my two books I have written as I believe there is an audience out there but I know that I will be doing NaNoWriMo again this year so I will spend January through May editing the others.

Hello out There

Today has been a good morning thus far of course the thing that makes it good is my girls let me sleep in until 7:45AM, yeehaw!

I thought I would let you know that I have started yet another blog to talk about all my tv watching, it is: Marvelous One's Reality and Television Round-Up . I also have my other blog Marvelous Melia's Computer Gaming Review that I am also begining so take a look if you like either games or television. I figured that these three blogs capture most of my life in a nutshell.

Have a great Saturday!

NanoWriMo Starts Soon

Yes, that is true. The thing is that I am not sure even what I am going to write I just pray that everyone stays healthy during that month as well as during this whole Fall and Winter months as I cannot handle another year of sickness.

Anyway, that is what I am up to after the joys of school pictures on Tuesday and Halloween on Wednesday. And since I know you are going to ask: My littlest girl will be a ladybug, and the middle one is going to be a witch. As for my boy, he is going to be something black but I am not sure what to call it. I just hope this is his last year but I doubt it.

Big Brother 8 Spoiler

OK, so any of you Mom's who had to go to bed early or simply do not read other blogs here is the part one Head of Household (HoH) competition winner -- ZACH! Ugh! I would have rather had Dick or Daniele win as I would love to see the Donato's win both First and Second prize and thus having the jury house have to choose between the two of them to be the actual winner of the game. Unlike some people on the CBS.com BB8 message board I really think that the Donato's have played the game rather strategically. I also like the fact that they have renewed their father/daughter relationship and wish them well after the show.

Thus I am rooting for Dick and Danielle to go all the way!

Hoping We are Finished

We have all had the stomach flu this last weekend which meant I spentmy whole Sunday in bed with a major headache when I was not in the bathroom paying homage to the porcelain goddess or the nearby trashcan. I am just so glad that they are almost always twenty-four hours and that the symptoms can be eliminated by not eating. There is also the fact that it usually only happens once a year.

My two older kids had it on Friday and the youngest and I had it Saturday and yesterday. My husband has been lucky thus far and I pray that he does not get it because the fewer the people that get it the better.

Anyway, that was my fun weekend! The good news was I did get to have a good night with my friends across the street before getting sick.

Yeah!!!

Labor Day Weekend ahead of us!!!

I am so looking forward to the fact that we have three days off where I do not have to take my middle daughter to school -- I am just hoping the girls let me sleep in an extra hour.

I guess I could say that I am rather lucky today because my youngest daughter is asleep now, yes it is after ten in the morning. The sad thing is I am up thus I am not that blessed. The fact though is I am bored because I am usually outside now with her and we are playing before we go in to eat lunch and take a nap, at this rate I will get no nap and the book I am really into, The last of Stephen King's Dark Tower series, will have to wait until this evening after James leaves to do his radio program.

Long Time, No Write!

Sorry for not being around and not writing: A new school year brings a brand new schedule in life and in writing. My littlest girl and I are really enjoying the fact that we have lots of quiet time when no one is fighting over toys or crying about this or that -- we simply do not know what to do with ourselves.

I know that I should be writing but I cannot get back into the daily grind of sitting at my computer and write rather than play mindless games. I am going to get back to editing my book soon as next week but even that brings a heavy feeling inside me.

My littlest child gets to look forward to starting potty training starting next week as well. I do not want to have the same thing happen with her as happened with my middle child but the good news is that she is my last child and thus she won't feel as though she needs to try for attention as the other did. Once she is potty trained I am done with diapers until grandchildren, if I have any!!!

He Better be Happy

Saturdays are usually days I make Daddy stay home and spend with the girls but today I let him go to work -- mainly to keep him from complaining about my wanting to watch the Live Earth coverage online. He gets bored easily if I don't give him the computer thus I sent him him off to play in his office.

I figure he is luckier than I am because he gets peace and quiet away from the ruckus around the house. All I gotta say is enjoy my dear because it won't happen again for quite sometime now. I at least need my one day where I can lock myself in the bedroom without the kids bugging me constantly...

Two Vehicle Family, Again

It has been a long time since we have had two vehicles (since 2001, I think)! No, we did not buy a new vehicle but did buy a minivan -- a Ford Windstar (1998) but even so we will be able to go out without cramping the kids in the back seat. Yes, there are repairs needed but still under blue book and the good news is our mechanic has said that it should run well for awhile after repairs are made. Hopefully by then we can think about something a lot newer but for now this will definitely work for our family. I know that both my hubby and I are glad we do not have to shuffle the one car around just to get things done, anymore.

UGH!!!

Still no network television here and I am going crazy. Does anyone out there know how to get television on my computer without paying. I know there is a way to see prime time television shows but I want to be able to see my soaps, especially The Young and the Restless.

Of course then there is the reality shows that I am missing or may miss if they do not turn on the networks soon. I will be so made if I have to try and catch highlights and such on the web of Big Brother 8 which is to start airing in the begining of July. I will get the live feed but I would miss all competitions and whatnot because they black those out on the live feed. The thought just sucke eggs if you ask me!


Not very happy at the moment...Can you tell? Hehe!

Frustration Over Network Outages

My networks have been down for almost twelve hours now and I am irritated. I am not sure if it is my cable , which is horrible in the first place, or the networks themselves but whatever it is it sucks the big one. I am forcing myself to sit through my kids' programing on Nickelodeon which is hell. I would rather watch Good Morning America, Regis and Kelly, The View, and then my soaps on CBS but no not today. My networks have been out since yesterday at eleven A.M..

I just want to scream bloody murder as that is what it feels like at the moment, murder.

The other thing that is hellish is the fact that it is humid and gloomy outside which is even more frustrating. We in the panhandle are not supposed to get a ton of humidity yet here we are almost summer with too much humidity to boot. Am I in Missouri, again? I sure hope not because I never want to live there again, although I would not mind visiting.

Here is the Deal

I really do love my life and myself but what is a commentator if not a complainer. I can find just about anything about anything to complain about. I love television in general and always have it on but most of the day I can find at least one thing to comment about per hour. I watch at least nine to twelve hours of television per day to pass the time and not feel so lonely as many a days I spend all day with my children thus adult conversation is at a minimum and usually I have to talk on my instant messenger and or wait until the kids go to bed at night or talk back to the TV when I disagree with what they are doing or saying.

The other thing I do is sit at my computer waiting all day, sometimes, hoping my neighbors come out or come home soon just so that I can talk to an adult while my kids get a chance to play with other children. There are times that I will go across the street without my kids, as well, because I need to get away from the little monsters whom I never get away from during the day as my husband has classes, writing, and research of his own to do.

Lose Weight America

At least that is what all the ads and the television shows tell us Americans to do. The thing is I am about 5'1" and 108lbs so what I should lose more? I would be wafer thin if I did and besides I am finally happy with how I do look.

I believe the reason why we do have a lot of actresses and socialites that are so thin is because the fashion world and entertainment industries are telling people (both male and female) that no matter how thin they are they too can be thinner with this or that diet or pill fad. Well Nicole Ricci, Paris Hilton, and all the other wafer thin people in the media need not lose any weight what so ever.

The emails I get are not any better. They do not know me yet they are telling me that I can look and feel better if I lose the extra pounds I have packed on over the years. These types of emails need to stop! Yes, I get some of the nutrition newsletters and such but that should not invite diet ads and such to be sent to my email inbox or spam box.

The other thing that bugs the living shit out of me is when I go to my favorite sites such as Yahoo Pool, or even just my email and the ads are on losing weight. I wonder why I am on the net so long when all I see is how fat I should think I am.

OK, so yes after three kids I have gained ten pounds from before my childbearing years. Who cares? No one really my family and friends all say that I look a whole bunch better after gaining the ten extra pounds and I actually fit close that are in the regular stores like JC Penney's and the like rather than looking for specialty stores that cater to the sizes under three. Yes, when I was in high school and college I was between the sizes of zero and two and I guess I was just lucky enough to live in Orange County, California where I could find stores that had sizes that small. I would have been shit out of luck if I lived where I do now!

I Should Be a Sports Commentator

According to my husband I would be perfect at it. I sat through the whole four games of the NBA Finals commentating on everything from the way the teams played to what they were wearing and how the men's hair was cut.

There was also the fact that the fans of any sports teams and otherwise becoming real quiet when their teams are down. Why? Wouldn't it not be better if the team's fans became real rowdy in support of their team when they are down to boost the teams' spirits up and thus encouraging the team to try harder instead of giving up.

The last thing I was commentating the most on was the fact that there are all these foreigners come to train and play in America then when the Olympic years come around they play or compete for their own countries. This not only happens in the NBA but in other national sports and in individual sports as well (such as figure skating). I am not upset that foreigners come here to play professional sports what I am upset is that they then go back home to play for their country. Maybe, that should be disallowed.

The Dumb Cat

The cat did it again yesterday...Yes, she did...She peed on my damn side of the bed. It is becoming very frustrating. The thing that saved me this time was that I had an extra layer of material because of a towel I put between my mattress and my mattress pad thus the damn cat pee did not soak in as far as last time. If my cats aren't careful they will all become outdoor cats before they can meow the next time.

Stupid Cat(s)!

I spent all afternoon and most of the night trying despertely to remove the cat urine smell from my bed as one of my five cats had decided that my side of the bed is her litter box. I believe the follwing cat, Spot, was the culprit but of course with five cats it could have been any of a number of cats. I do know that it was not Sheila and probably not Mohawk because the do not like our room very much. The only other two culprits are Sammy, the orange kitten, and Fluffball.
The saddest thing is that I did not get to sleep until after two or three A.M. and then my middle girl decided that she was up for the day by 6:45 this morning. I am thus cranky tired and in dire need of a nap, now, and it is only 9:15.
Someone PLEASE tell me what time of year it is? Three days before my middle daughter's fifth birthday and it has snowed. It looks like we should be celebrating my husband's birthday in January.

Now For Today!

I am making my youngest daughter grow up by graduating her from crib to toddler bed (sort of). What I did was take off one side rail of her crib so that she can get in and out of her bed as well as get her own stuffed animals and nigh-nights out of her own bed rather than relying on her parents to do it for her.

She also got her first haircut Monday. She looks so much older and of course more adorable, hehe. I kind of had a moment of wow-dom because this will be my last first in terms of my own kids but I am over that now.

My older two kids are graduating to bigger and better stuff as well. My son is now using big people plates and my daughter is using bigger plastic cups. Dang how much more can a woman, like me, take, hehe.

Yesterday was our 11th Anniversary

Wow we made it eleven years married to each other. Happy belated anniversary to us! We have been together fifteen and have been through a whole gamut of emotions but I think we are a success for stricking through hell and high-water to find happiness and know that if we don't like something today in a month things will probably change.

I love my hubby, James, more today than when we first met on April 11, 1992 when I fell in love with him as he sat in front of me in my dates car. He is my mate for life that is for sure!

Back to Work --

On my novel editing that is. I feel that if I tell someone or at least post it here that I am bound to editing my novel on an almost daily basis. I use my friends for the same purpose when I was writing the novels in the first place. My online best friend would remember all the times I would tell her how many words I have left to write per day for the whole month of November when I did NaNoWriMo in the past.

I will be going for now.

Made it Through

Luckily we were West of the tornadoes that hit the panhandle and other areas near us. One tornado hit in Beaver County killing two people, unfortunately. Other than that I did not hear of anyone else killed but I could be wrong, somehow I think I always am, hehe. I am just glad that all we got was rain with a little hail and thunder/lightning from the storms that passed through last night.

I should be editing at the moment but for some reason I just can't get into the feeling that goes along with editing. I have never been good at editing in the first place, especially, when it has to do with editing my own book. How could I need to edit when I am perfect on the first go-around? NOT! Hehe! I know that no one including me is perfect so to editing I must go.

How Wonderful!

My kid's are back in school which is nice because I do not have two bored kids pacing the house all day long. I know that summer vacation is only about two months away but it is nice to have them in school for the time being.

I am in the process of editing my first novel I originally wrote in November 2004. The three or so hours I have while my middle daughter is at school is about all I need to get the editing done in a months time.

Son's Birthday was Yesterday

Wow, eleven years has past! Where did those years go? Now I know what people mean when they say the years go by too fast and they grow up too soon.

I made it through a tiny party we had for him and several of his friends. He hates the fact that his birthday falls on the week of spring break and many of his friends from school are off doing their own little things.

Anyway, I better be ready to get off at anytime because this is the last real day of spring break, thankfully, and I can just bet that my son is wanting on the computer. The thing is that I will not let him on unless he asks me -- I would rather him spend time with his friends that are around this week.

Taking My Few Minutes on Computer

To inform everyone that our dreams will stay here in Oklahoma for a little while longer. My hubby got an email on Friday saying that the search for psychology professors was being closed for the year with no one being hired. My guess is that the budget predictions for California was doom and gloom so we will try again next year.

The good news was that he got rather far in the process which has encouraged him to keep applying in the California area. Our newest goal is to get back to California some year soon.

Spring Break

Joy! Joy! Joy!

In my house that means I will barely get computer since I got my son's game World of Warcraft working. I am glad that everything finally works but dang now I am going to get the computer less during this next week.

Of course, then there are the many arguments to look forward to as the girls try and bug their brother.

My son celebrates his birthday on Thursday and because he will be turning eleven he will be able to join boy scouts as soon as the following week if he wants and thankfully he is leaning towards that direction. I am also hoping that he decides to play baseball this year as well, but I am not sure he does not seem as enthusiastic about doing any sport this year.

Picture of Sammy Too

A Fun effect I did with my cat! I tried to do it one more time but the picture came out to dark.

Middle Child

Well she does know how to create havoc much of the time. Her latest antic has been to give herself bangs. Luckily though, that is all she did. I was very glad that she did not touch the back of her hair.

Other than that nothing else new is happening. We are still in waiting mode and feel kind of on edge because of the unknown future at this time.

Well I am off to enjoy the nice day we are having.

I Got to Sleep In!!!

I wish that was true

In reality though I got less sleep because of the time change. I still woke up at seven A.M. standard time -- the thing was it was eight o’clock, daylight savings time. I was amazed though because my girls slept in until after nine o’clock which is more than an hour than normal. The girls are usually up at about seven-thirty when I do not have to wake them up early.

Grades are Great

My son still has a little room for improvement but gosh all I can say is that he is much smarter than I ever was and ever will be in my lifetime. Then again he comes from an almost genius father so it is nothing too surprising.

The school is pushing the kids a tad harder right now because state testing is coming up and thus they give the students harder work in several of the subjects, like math, but even so he is nothing lower than an 85% and that is in band and I have to say that I think that teacher is rather tough on all the kids. More reasons to want to move than anything!


Keeping fingers crossed!

Parent/Teacher Conferences

The end of the third nine weeks of school is today thus this afternoon I have conferences with the teachers for both older kids. I am expecting nothing really suprising as my son is smarter than smart and my girl is better at school than she is at home. My son thus far has had an almost 4.0 to a 4.0 grade point average. I have also told my son that I am not all that concerned about quarter grades than I am semester grades as they count more as he gets older.

My daughter, on the other hand, is too young for real grades thus her reports are fun. \

We Are All Still Alive

The two kids and I made it through the day without killing each other. I was amazed at how well the two of them got along...I guess bribing them with good food does work. My son was also good because he really wanted to spend his allowance, not surprisingly he spent a whole two months worth in less than ten minutes.

The kids did get new shoes that we went after, as well. I was kind of shocked though as my daughter who is learning how to tie at school would not allow me to buy her tie shoes and my son who hates tying his shoes got tie.

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On another note: I think I got my sister's kid in my youngest daughter as she is the clean-freak that my sister is. We barely got in the door and she was cleaning up and throwing away bags and shoe boxes. I am really scared, hehe...What is she going to be like as a teenager or as an adult visiting her parents, for that matter? My bad habits are definitely going to be scrutinized by her.

I Must Be Crazy

Haha!!!

I am going to take my two older kids to Liberal to get shoes and then take them out to dinner by myself. This is the first time I am going to try this and probably the last as it means taking them an hour from the house in the car then expecting them not to fight through JC Penney and Wal-Mart. I am also expecting them not to argue through an early dinner as well. God, I know I am going crazy, again.


Oh yeah, did I mention that the two of them never get along and the fact that they are six years apart means that they fight over every little thing.

My advice to any parent reading this and thinking about when to have their second or third child is never wait longer than four years between siblings. My sister and I are five years apart and we never got along until after she moved out of the house when she was twenty-one years old. The problem was that I wanted to be exactly like her and be around her even when she was with her boyfriends, and especially her best friend. We also have two different ideas of clean and thus she would almost kill me over the fact that I was not a neat freak like she always has been.

The fact that my two girls are only three years apart seems to be the right age seperation. My older of the two was helpful for the most part when the youngest was an infant and now is able to play somewhat nicely with her younger sister. The fact that they share a room sometimes gets in the way but has worked out pretty well. I hope someday to give them their own room but at the moment it is not possible, maybe soon.

For now all I know is I have gone crazy in many ways but somehow we will get the shoes that we are going for and dinner I am treating to my two older children. I am thankful that my husband is going to stay with the youngest because that would just be way to much for me at this time. I did tell my husband if he wanted to come that he is welcome to but he kindly declined --- is it too late for me to change my own mind?

Getting Home From School

I have to say that my middle daughter can be a pain when she comes home from school. I am not sure what she does at school, all I know is she comes home really tired. I wish she would take naps still but I am lucky if she sits and watches t.v. or colors quietly while my youngest and I get our nap.

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On a lighter note: I got some cleaning done this morning. Hubby woke up early saying that the house smelled like his mom's house when he was young so I guess I was doing something right.

Back to the Mundane

I am very thankful to be saying that after all the illness we suffered from last month.

Now we are back into our old routines and hopeful will save money rather than spend it all before the month's end. It is never fun to see all your money go to the doctors and knowing that we will still owe them more after the insurance pays their portion. I am sure we will be paying the doctor off for several months now.

Anyway, that is all that is on my mind today.

Finally!

My insurance company called me this morning to tell me that they finally approved my Tamiflu and thus I was able to get a refund for almost $65 for the cost of the med minus the $25 co-pay.

I am very thankful for the fact that the insurance got their act together sooner than later. I am also thankful that we are all well.

Well Again Well Again!

Jiggedy jig!

Yes, that is right all of us are well again and it is about time: it has only been a month since we were all well. I just hope that we all stay well these next few months of cold weather and that we do not go through this again for many more winters to come.

I usually love winter but this one I can truly say I am ready for it too end. There has been too much snow and ice for this part of the high plains. I hate El Nino years!

Ninety Dollars Later

I got my Tamiflu. There was no other way I was going to get the rest of my prescription unless I paid the full price for the medication. The insurance was the last thing holding everything up as the doctor's office finally got there part done on Tuesday but the insurance never approved the paying of the drug.

I guess the lesson I learned is never get sick in the first place and by all means never try and prevent an illness. The insurance hates those that do not want to get sick, for some reason. It is kind of like the fact that a preventative physical exam is balked at because you are not sick. Why go to the doctor if you feel "normal", anyway!

Don't you just love the way insurance companies think? I hate it!

The Medical Insurance Saga Continues!

OK, I am now waiting on the Insurance company to send a fax back to the doctor saying that they authorize the prescription of the Tamiflu to me, the patient. If it is not one thing it is another! I am just glad the doctor's office has done their share of the paperwork.

So for now the waiting game continues and I become more and more frustrated as time goes by, I am just lucky that the pharmacy has given me several days to get me through until this insurance snafu gets settled. If all else fails I will pay the almost nine dollars per pill (ten pills) just to get me over this flu and keep my youngest as healthy as she can be.

The health of my kids is the most important issue at hand!

My Turn Now!

Yup, that is right I now have the flu. I believe God is just blessing me with tons of patience in this last month with all the illnesses being spread in and around my family. I also have strep throat and tonsilitus to complicate matters more. The doctor gave me two shots and perscribed Azithromycan and Tamiflu. I unfortunately was unable to get my Tamiflu because it was Saturday and the doctor was already gone for the day when the pharmacy tried to contact him because the insurance company needs the doctor to call them to give authorization of the second script for Tamiflu in a month. I will have to wait now until Monday so that I can contact the doctor regarding the snafu... I have also called my friend/pharmacist to let her know of the situation so that she can also work on it when she gets into the office tomorrow.

Of course, none of this would have happened if the pharmacy would have called me before five when I called them because I would have used my own resources as a social worker to try to contact the doctor at the hospital before five-thirty as the pharmacy closes at six.

I am just glad I feel a tad better today because of the antibiotic and shots, today. I am just scared of passing this shit back to my youngest daughter as she is the most vulnerable. She has been coughing a tad but I had Daddy giver her an albuterol treatment last night and I gave her cough syrup before bed. I know that she will be fine though. I am also going to call her doctor tomorrow to ask if there is anything special I can do to prevent her from getting this shit again.

All I know is I have become the flu treatment expert this last month.

Is This Ever Going to End!

My son is at home again today because of sickness. He has a terrible sore throat and looks like hell. He is resting at the moment but gosh I wonder why we got hit so hard when we hardly ever get this sick around my house. We have immune systems of steel most winters.

I feel bad for my son because he misses school because of this yes but he is also missing a spelling bee today and academic team practice this evening as well. I am just glad he is caught up with his homework/make-up work to this point. I am hoping he returns to school tomorrow but who knows.

The sick house is my life!

What a Month Thus Far

I am so sick of having a sick house. My son is home from school yet again. My middle daughter woke up with a cough that seemed a little harsher than usual but I sent her to school anyway and have a call into the nurse at the doctors office to ask if I should get her in because of the fact that my youngest got so sick and I definitely do not want her to get it again.

Yes, I know I had said that I thought my middle daughter brought the flu home to everyone but I am not so sure anymore now I am thinking my husband brought it home to all of us. All I know is everyone in the family has gotten the flu and I hate it.

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I just called the nurse again and I will be taking my middle daughter in to get her on Tamiflu which is a good thing . I want to just get everyone well as soon as possible for obvious reasons.

Yesterday!

My youngest daughter is on the road to recovery. The appointment yesterday brought good news as her oxygen level was at 100% and she was thus cleared from having to go to the doctor's on an almost daily basis. I am so thankful. I was even happier to return the oxygen machine that was taking up space in my house.

As a preventative measure I took my son in to the doctor yesterday afternoon because he was complaining on headache and sore throat and thus got him put on Zithromax/Azithromycin. I only did so because I do not want to reinfect my 21-month-old especially after the ordeal we have already gone through with her.

I think from now on my whole household is getting the flu shot that I normally do not bother to get because until this year it usually does not attack us this hard.

The Little One

My youngest girl is doing much much better -- not one hundred percent yet but dang she is so much better than she was a week ago. I am just releaved that we are over the major hurdle and we are on our way to healthdom.

It definitely has been a rather long week and I know that I never want to go through something like this again.

Doctor's Appointment #3

Okay, so today the little one must have been a tad better because the doctor did not mention 'she is really congested,' 'admitance,' or 'hospital' at all. We did get a home oxygen machine and are now trailing cords around the house.

The joys of a kid under two with a cold is an oxymoron that is for sure. I just wish there was more that I could do to help her out.

My Days, No Longer Boring

Thanks to the flu that is going around my middle child gave it to the whole family, from which she got from school. Tamiflu and Azithromicin is getting me and hubby through it but unfortunately it attacked my youngest pretty horribly thus she is on two breathing treatments and four other meds for symptoms of RSV. I am just praying that she does not have to be hospitalized to get more extensive treatments for this shit in her chest. I just wish I could reach down her throat and pull out all the gunkies.

So until tomorrow when I take my youngest to the doctor again I will continue the dang treatments and more. Another update will be forthcoming tomorrow afternoon.

There is a Ton of Snow

And the Kids Still had School, On Time!

Geesh, what was the school thinking, well...ok so they were not thinking. The schools north and south of us were giving the students, and parents an extra hour to get their kids to school but not us.

Anyway, I got them there and all was safe so I know I should not complain but it is like living up in Minnesota thankfully though our snow will melt eventually. The roads are barely if at all cleared off and we will be the last of the last to get anyone to clear our town of the snow. Hubby and I are having flashbacks of our days in Columbia, MO when we used to find mounds of snow on the side of the roads, middle of the highways, and parking lots.

Come Back Come Back

Wherever you are!!

I am back into the swing of writing on an almost daily basis so please come and experience the boredom I will share with you that at this point and time is my life. As a stay at home mommy there are times that very little is going on like today but of course every day is different because of the fact that each day the kids come up with different crises to make life somewhat interesting.

Our Shadow Cat Died

My son and husband are taking the death hard but we knew it was coming as she was losing weight and had stopped drinking a day or two before she died. My son cried off and on all day yesterday as the cat layed dying in the master bedroom. For four years the bedroom had been Shadow's home as she rarely left the room. Kev usually watches tv in that room in the evenings as well as plays his PS2 back there so had become attached to the cat just by the fact that they were in the same vicinity of each other.

Shadow was a stray cat that we adopted four years ago when she was pregnant and back then was unsure of anything that crossed her path thus she held herself up in our room. She was a great mother but did not like any of the other six cats that have blessed this house. My husband was the one person that she attached to the most and she learned to tolerate me probably just because I slept near him.

The idea of death for my four and a half-year-old daughter was a little confused. She believes that she died because she stopped eating and drinking and her body was worn out from old age. I remember saying something similar to our son when we lost hamsters (Habnab and Ert-Ert).

I will say that having animals has been a great teaching tool about life: the whole life cycle can be seen from begining to end.

Anyway, that is what happened yesterday after our DSL was put in.

I Have Upgraded

Well, ok so we as a family have upgraded finally to DSL thus run a lot faster and our phone line is now free much of the time.

I have also upgraded to the new blogger here and will enjoy the added features when I post.

Anyway, I am going to write more now so keep checking back for new posts.